A LOT has happened......

Well, SO much has happened since I last wrote. 

Colten and I broke up. It seems now like it was just a matter of time. I think it was a good decision, though. I am just glad that at least he and I can still be friends. That's the hard thing about loving your best friend. So many times, when the two of you break up it ruins that great friendship too. Yes, I still love him. But more like it should be, I love him the right way now; he's more like my brother. 

I'm living with my aunt Val and uncle Evan. At first I was hesitant to fall so fast, headfirst, into the unknown. Sometimes that's what it takes, though. I needed that push because I obviously was no longer pushing myself. I moved out here with them because I needed a change of pace, a place where I could let go of all of the baggage that I let hold me back. I came out here so that I can get my life together under new pretenses, mainly in school. Ugh!

School is a different story all on its own. I have ALWAYS struggled with it, and now that I am in a new atmosphere, maybe I can get a grip on myself. I HAVE to get a grip on myself. 

But anyways, yesterday my friend Taylor came over and we painted my room!! I think it looks awesome! My theme is Green, Teal, and White. I want everything to be really crisp and fresh, but fun too :D

I don't know what to do about boys, though. GRRR. SO FRUSTRATING!! I have a boyfriend, his name is Heath, but he's been acting so odd lately. Maybe I'm over reacting. I don't know. *sigh* It's just lame, I feel like he's ignoring me. I can tell that he's trying to be discreet about it, because when a guy gives me BULL, I can tell. I guess it's a gift learned from experience.  O_0  Plus, to top it off, a guy that I've liked for a long while finally told me that he feels the same towards me. GAH! I love both of them.. but I wonder, is love always enough? Unfortunately I already know the answer...No, it's not enough, and that scares me more than anything. I just want to be right by everyone!! But the only outcomes I see end up hurting someone in the process. I can't have either one of them hate me, it would kill me! I don't know what I want.......

Maybe I can ask Grammie what she thinks... when she comes back ON WEDNESDAY! WOOOOT!!! She's coming back because aunt Val is actually having a baby, on August 12. It's a little girl, with an unknown name..LOL. It's either going to be Dylann (pronounced like Dylan) Mckenzie Ehat, or Addison Michelle Ehat. I personally like Dylann, and not because the middle name is after me. Of course, it does make me feel all fuzzy and good inside :D:D:D but I don't know. I just love guys names for little girls, it's kind of quirky and cute. So adorable! 

Panic! at the Disco BROKE UP!! NOOOOOO!! They were my fav ever! :( Speaking of music, I am going to go see The Big Bad Voodoo Daddies on Aug. 17th. Then, I'm wanting to go to the reunion concert tour of Blink 182, with Chester French and Taking Back Sunday! YAY!

Wellz, Ima go. Until next time my friends! <3/kenzie